Sharing

Trying to explain to a nearly 16 month old that sharing is what you do in a civilised society is (much) easier said than done.

We had company yesterday as my friend Vicky came over with her little girl Esme and it was fun.

We took a walk and the little ones got to play. Eden was just kicking off all day though. I keep telling myself that it is teething woes but in reality I think it is frustration as she can't comunicate what she wants. Well whatever it is, it's really annoying cos I can't be doing with the screaming and kicking. I think she just wants to be free and who can blame her? Being right on the verge of walking and being put in a buggy when you want to do your own thing has got to bug.

Back at home little Esme was happily having a little play with some of Eden's things and she was NOT happy about it. Snatching things away and getting stroppy. Sometimes I just don't know how to react when she does that because she is too young to understand what I am saying but I want to get her into good habits starting young.

I don't want a spoilt baby.

Don't get me wrong it isn't all bad! i think if she had an older sibling it would be easier as she would be used to sharing stuff but y'no, she is still a baby her self yet. I think nursery will help.

So how do you discipline a young child/toddler?

Adios,

Shel x

10 months of memories

Wow, my baby girl has gotten to ten months already.. I can't believe it.

This week, reaching ten months since the birth has made me think about a few things. I haven't spoken on here about my birth experience, I guess I don't feel ready too which is basically because I didn't have a positive birth experience at all. I worried for quite some time as to what effect the birth would have on me both physically and emotionally. Thankfully the physical pain is beginning to ease now, but I am still left with the emotion and trauma of a negative birth experience.

I am hoping, in time the negativity will leave me, the flashbacks will stop, and the apprehension about having another child will go away. They say time is a healer and I am certainly hoping so.

In the meantime I have applied to view my medical records at the hospital as I feel this will be a neccesary step towards closure. I feel that if I can sit down and read and understand exactly what happened, what went wrong, then I can find inner peace.

Maybe in the not so distant future I will dedicate a page to my Pregnancy and Birth, but for now I will leave it at that.

On a more positive note, I have gotten the greatest gift in the world from the whole experience:

And what more can anyone ask for?

再見

     Shel x